Full Moon in Capricorn
In my childhood, I told my mother that I didn’t want to be smart. When she asked why, I reasoned that being smart means more work - the teacher asks you to help everyone else who doesn’t get it and you’re expected to be some kind of happy miracle worker by doing her job for her and I didn’t want that. (I was a sassy child.) I'm reminded of that scenario now. The Full Moon in Capricorn is the teacher who tells you that she expects more from you because she knows that you can do it. And so you take on more than you feel you can handle with a sense of obligation.
Feeling vulnerable in the situation, you seek help to alleviate the discomfort. Take heart in knowing that there is a reason for you to experience this moment. Perhaps it is teaching you self-advocacy and urging you to use your assertive communication skills. Or maybe that you have more patience than you realize and feel proud of yourself for not blowing up. We can only surmise in the moment. Perhaps you learn humility to ask for help when you truly need it.
The help you receive may just be what you need to overcome whatever systems are in place that made you feel obligated/weakened/defeated/deflated in the first place. Let’s say, for example, that you usually strongly argue for others’ interest, but you feel nervous standing up for yourself. Think outside of yourself. Come to realize that you are not alone in your struggle. There are plenty of others like you who would benefit from the visibility of a role model who speaks from a holistic (as opposed to individualistic) place. Various social movements begin with a concentrated group of individuals who empower one another to say, “that’s not ok and here’s what we can do to make it better.” Short term may feel intense, scary, and overwhelming. Long term could be the salvation of many. You too can be Norma Rae.
It’s easy to get caught up in our own emotions. Our feelings can feel enveloping and eclipsing. But Life is bigger than just us alone. As social creatures, we exist because of others. Going back to my childhood resistance, I was thinking exclusively about myself and the inconvenience that helping others caused me. (No extra time to color by myself! Wah!) If the Full Moon in Capricorn happened during that year, I may have been more inclined to consider that helping others achieve success would have meant less time spent explaining things to them (wasting precious playground time!) and smarter peers in the world that would hopefully make it a better place. Children often do not think big. Children also have self-interested ambitions. As adults we can choose to make decisions that have a larger impact for the greater good. We can do more.
So take this Full Moon in Capricorn to consider what newness can be borne from ending a pattern in your life that you know needs to finally die. The two weeks between the full and new moons are a fantastic time to consider new relationships, new goals, and new ambitions. Shift your focus and awareness towards new opportunities. Think things through carefully. Perhaps the offer will be rejected, but the point is to give yourself time to consider doubts and benefits. Ask others their opinions, but don’t be wedded to their approval if you choose to follow your own path. Go mindfully forward.
Tarot spread: Ten of Wands, Five of Pentacles (R), King of Swords (R), Queen of Pentacles, (R) Four of Cups (R)